Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Psalm 138

I came across this psalm today as I was reading my Bible. Verses three and seven especially spoke to me.

Psa 138:1
A Psalm of David.
I WILL praise You with my whole heart;
Before the gods I will sing praises to You.
Psa 138:2
I will worship toward Your holy temple,
And praise Your name
For Your lovingkindness and Your truth;
For You have magnified Your word above all Your name.
Psa 138:3
In the day when I cried out, You answered me,
And made me bold with strength in my soul.
Psa 138:4
All the kings of the earth shall praise You, O LORD,
When they hear the words of Your mouth.
Psa 138:5
Yes, they shall sing of the ways of the LORD,
For great is the glory of the LORD.
Psa 138:6
Though the LORD is on high,
Yet He regards the lowly;
But the proud He knows from afar.
Psa 138:7
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me;
You will stretch out Your hand
Against the wrath of my enemies,
And Your right hand will save me.
Psa 138:8
The LORD will perfect that which concerns me;
Your mercy, O LORD, endures forever;
Do not forsake the works of Your hands.

Wow!! I love it that God can make me "bold in my soul." I fear so much. I wonder about the future so much. When I think of all that our life now entails b/c of Benjamin and his Down syndrome (heart surgery aside even), it can seem bleak and uncertain. But look at verse eight. He will perfect that which concerns me! Another version reads, "the Lord will acccomplish what concerns me." I love it. God's will is going to be perfected in me; it will be accomplished. I feel honored that He would use little old me. Me, who is inherently lazy. I almost didn't read my Bible this afternooon. I knew I only had a few minutes before I heard that oh-so-familiar cry (from either boy or usually both) coming down the stairs. It would have pleased my flesh much more to just flip on the TV or to take a quick nap. But instead I listened to the tugging of the Holy Spirit and opened my Bible. I was searching for a familiar verse in Psalm 139 but "just happened" to come across this passage instead. Me, who feels sorry for myself. Me, who watches far too much television and always puts off reading her Bible until a "later" that rarely comes. Me, who feels like sometimes I am faking it in front of others. Yes, He will perfect that which concerns me. Because no matter how sinful I am, I have been redeemed. I am His child. And He loves me. Praise God.

1 comment:

Kellye, Chad, & Hayden said...

Chills...absolute chills Angela. I don't get a chance to see this side of you on BZ, but man you sure know how to make me cry. You are an absolute inspiration!!!