Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Bullet points

It's been over two weeks since my last confession blog post.


Enter the bullet points.

  • I'm now 24 1/2 weeks pregnant and I am tired.
  • November was hard. Really hard. Benjamin was sick the entire month. It was almost more than I could take, physically but especially emotionally. I had a breakdown on Thanksgiving. It was just a really dark time. I'll blog more about it later. I keep thinking about blogging about it, if that helps for anything.
  • Speaking of thinking about blogging, I do have several posts spinning around in my head about how having a diagnosis is a double-edged sword, about how now b/c of Benjamin I have new worries about this new baby and its impact on my life. I will hopefully one day put those thoughts into actual posts.
  • I am now singing, "You spin me right round, baby
    right round like a record, baby
    Right round round round..."
  • I just had my last high-risk OB appt today where they did a very detailed ultrasound of TomKat's heart. All looked great. Perfect four-chambered heart, all the valves perfect, heartbeat 166 bpm.
  • I am in full swing of Christmas-time activities, including shopping, wrapping gifts, watching movies, listening to music, etc.
  • We are less than three weeks away from our trip to Disney World! I am excited but nervous b/c of my pregnant state.

That's basically it. Just wanted to let you know that I am still around. I am still reading blogs and am on Facebook every day. I will try to blog soon.


Shannon said...

hey angela, i wish i could get you a big hug!!! i like the bullet points... it's a quick way to keep up with you.

i don't have any idea the challenges you face with benjamin, but i do remember when mason was so so sick for his first year and we were at the hospital almost every month for breathing treatments. i showed up at the pedi's office one day after he was coughing so hard that blood came up, and i started crying and having a breakdown.

i am so happy that your appointment with the specialist went well. hmm... 166, i am still thinking girl!!! and the tomkat nickname still makes me laugh!!!

take care and you will have an amazing time in disney!!! i am so jealous!!!!

Erica said...

I'm with Shannon, Angela.....Big hugs to you! I have no idea either the challenges you will face with Benjamin. I can't even imagine. I have breakdowns just because I get overwhelmed with my life sometimes. Its ok though. Lean on you great family...you are so lucky to have such a great support system.

Don't worry about Disney and being pregnant....You'll have no problems and if you get to tired rent one of those electric carts...Andrew will love it!!! I can't believe you go in 3 weeks! I wish Abby wasn't in school I would have gone that same week!

I miss your blog!

count it all joy said...

Hi Angela, I agree with Shannon...hugs, bullet points, great news about appt's, Disney.

Sorry to hear you've had/having a dark time of it. I don't know about you, but I always feel particularly vulnerable when I'm pregnant. It's not necessarily a hormonal thing, it's a heart/nurturing/responsiblity thing. Growing and nurturing babies and children demands the very best of everything we have...and with the added demands of pregnancy (not to mention a sick toddler), it can seem an impossible hill to climb. Enough, God! I would think sometimes. I am not as capable as You think I am.

I would remember Mother Theresa's famous quote - "I know God won't give me more than I can cope with, but sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much!". It didn't make me feel much better, just perhaps less alone.

Will be praying that your time at Disney will be a great boost for the whole family. Meredith xo.

Tricia said...

I am praying for you. Every day. Hang in there. May God bless you and yours.

Anonymous said...

I am sending all my support, too. But, really - the "cute and funny" photos were more than enough to sustain me for quite some time.

Wow, Disney in 3 weeks... that is 2010. whoosh..... time flies, eh? I hope you surprise yourself with plenty of energy to enjoy your oldest son's first time there!


Lisa said...

I'm sorry you've had such a rough time. I can only imagine the things going through your head this time around.

I do have to admit that I chuckled a bit reading this. I was picturing you singing "you spin me right round baby..." with a chipmunk voice. LOL.

Enjoy Christmas week.

Anonymous said...

Angela - I just want to send a big hug your way. I totally understand where you are at with this pregnancy. The daydreaming and blissful pregnant days are long gone and now you eyes are wide open...be patient with yourself and keep taking those naps!

As for your posts - they always make me laugh - even if the are just bullet points.