This week has been nice despite the fact that Matthew had to work more than usual and I am starting to feel more of that first-trimester fatigue.
The boys have both been great, and I just love them more than life itself. I am amazed every day at how smart Andrew is, and the things he comes up with just keep us rolling with laughter. And I could seriously eat Benjamin up....I just kiss on him all day and laugh at his cute little smile and giggle.
Benjamin has started to take one step. He'll stand up unassisted, and sometimes take just one step. Then he either falls or continues to stand. He *might* be walking by the time this baby is born, but I will most likely still have to carry him up and down our long, hardwood stairway. Which means a lot of trips since I'll (obviously) also have to carry the newborn.
Speaking of newborn, we have decided on names. Katherine Elizabeth Amick or Thomas Alexander Amick. (Matthew says he is not 100% sure about the boy name, but I think he is...LOL.) We will not be finding out the sex of the baby until the day of the C-section, much to the chagrin of most people we know (and many of those we don't know). But for us, it simply is THE way to have a baby! :)
Sure, there are hard times, too. I wonder how in the world I will deal with a newborn when life already seems so busy. When Benjamin's verbal delays really get me down. When the worries of the future with a special needs child (and especially a special needs adult) starts to suffocate me. When I don't shower because I am too busy but mostly too lazy. When I snap at Andrew and get frustrated with Benjamin.
But, you know, I am only human. A human who is nothing without the One who saved her by grace. And that is what keeps me going.